Help! I’m Processing Pain in Public

By Elaina Ayala

I was talking to a friend and fellow leader recently about a struggle they were having. It’s a struggle many of us experience, and it’s one I’ve heard quite a few times over the past few years. It’s the pressure we feel to be “on” when we are going through emotional processing. It’s the sobering reality of being visible in those times, when all we really want to be is hidden.

For most of my adult life, I’ve had this super awkward reoccurring dream. In the dream I’m trying to use a public bathroom and people keep invading my space. At times there will be people looking over the bathroom stall, sometimes they’re even trying to take pictures of me. Other times, I’ll be doing my business and the bathroom stalls just collapse. In each dream, whatever the scenario may be, one theme is being shouted to me loud and clear — you’re gonna have to “process” in public.   Continue reading “Help! I’m Processing Pain in Public”